26 weeks

it has been a rough week. I was really nauseous and threw up this week, but am having a lot of back pain as well. Went to the doctors and he said it is just par for the coarse but I am having a hard time believing it can be this bad and there is nothing to do to help it. I am pretty immobile. Morning and night are the hardest. I can barely walk and am in so much pain sleeping is difficult. I looked in to a few support belts, but two of the three I have tried have only aggravated it more. Right now I am just trying to finish school and spend a lot of time on the heating pad. I know that I only have to deal with this for a limited time, so I am trying not to wallow too much, but I do have moments when it is just so hard to function that I just have to break down. I know it is all going to be worth it (or so everyone says)...but it does make me a little sad that this experience has been so crappy. Selfishly I wanted to enjoy this time and look forward to this new arrival, instead I find myself upset and just trying to manage. If you have any magic cures for sciatic nerve pain, please send them my way. But please try to refrain from telling me "this will all be worth it", because even though I like you very much I might punch you in the face. Intense pain for a prolonged time can make people mean...ask Josh, he has to live with me.

The growing belly at 6 months

For those I don't see on a regular basis and are requesting shots of the growing belly...here you go. You also get a nice view of the ocean as seen from our balcony on our recent trip to VA beach.

24 weeks

Last week was a busy one. I was finishing up school, looking forward to spring break and Josh and my little getaway over the next few days. Josh surprised me for my birthday with a few days away to the beach as a last trip with just the two of us (at least for a long while). I am really looking forward to just being able to relax and have nothing to do. It should be just what we both need.

I had a doctors appointment last week. It went well. The heart beat is strong and our little boy is growing right on schedule. The doctor was a little concerned about my condition and ordered some extra blood tests. I will go to the hospital when we get back from our trip to take those. I am sure everything will be fine, she just wanted to make sure I am responding correctly to the medication I am taking.

The baby has really been active! He gave Josh a good show last night kicking really hard for about a half an hour. I was glad, because he seems to always do that when Josh is not around to feel him. It was fun to sit there and get excited together every time the little one moved and kicked. It was nice to share that together, to talk about the future and this little boy we will soon meet. It is so hard to imagine a little person in there, but I am getting more use to the idea. I am excited to know him and figure out what kind of kid he is going to be. Mostly just to kiss his little face and hold him close and smell his tiny little peach fuzz head.

Don't get me wrong, I am still terrified by the whole prospect of being a mom, especially when I think about the fact that this kid has to come out of me....some how. But I am also trying to find joy and excitement in the things Josh and I will get to experience.

For those of you wanting a sickness update. I am still nauseous pretty much every day, but not all day any more and not as violently as before...so yay I guess.

23 weeks

Just one more...couldn't help myself. This makes me feel just a little twinge of panic, I'll be honest.

22.5 weeks

While reading the funnies this weekend I got a glimpse of my future and just thought I would share it with all of you.